Just Dealing

I left work early today because I was sick.  I don't do that very often, I usually just work through it.  I know that the last few days of sub zero temperatures and sitting by a door that opens constantly had something to do with it.  But I also know that I am physically sick because I have a broken heart.  I am physically run down because I have let a situation steal my joy that I have in Christ.  God knows that I have allowed this, so there is no reason to lie to myself or others.  He is here holding me and letting me cry, but there are still consequences, hence I am sick. 

I have no idea where this blog will lead, but it is a theraputic form of putting in writing what I feel.  It is out there and it makes me deal with it.